Caffeine

               I’ve been drinking so much caffeine lately – Diet Coke has basically been my lifeblood. I think that’s probably extremely unhealthy, and a habit I should really stop. Today, I tried drinking iced tea instead of Diet Coke… after about half an hour, I was convinced I was going to fall asleep at my desk staring at the Excel document with the tiny figures. Or more like collapse from exhaustion. I couldn’t keep my eyes open, and I have things to do. So, approximately an hour and fifteen minutes later, I have a diet coke right next to me.

               I am still ridiculously tired, although not dead yet. This means that the caffeine is working. And I managed to fix the formatting on this ridiculously small chart, and my eyes are blearily tired. I want things that make me stay awake, things that work better than soda. I’m pretty sure that my teeth, my stomach, and my insides are dying as we speak from Diet Coke overload… well, there goes another Diet Coke. I need to convince myself that water has caffeine. Because I’m pretty sure that caffeine doesn’t actually work on me and it’s just a placebo effect. So, I need to just think that water makes me awake. This is going to be a tough battle…

               I’ve noticed that everyone around here drinks Diet Coke. It’s like… drink of choice around here. And I’ve definitely developed a “need” for it. My taste for drink changes… for a while it was hot cocoa. And then I decided I didn’t like it that much, because it’s not the good cocoa, it’s the kind that comes from those coffee machines. It’s not especially fabulous. And Diet Coke is sweet. Yum. It’s rotting my teeth as we speak. What else can I drink… I think for about two days, I drank those Ice drinks, grapefruit flavored. And then I realized how much dye was in there (the drinks are always a fascinatingly violent shade of some color, like pink, green, yellow… it’s so fake. And ingesting it makes me feel bad. Not that Diet Coke has any less dye in it. Is there such thing as caffeinated water? Because I need something to keep me awake… I want a nap. That would be the best solution) and so I stopped drinking it.

                Oh, and for the character in my story, I decided that he can have brown eyes instead. I want to write about brown eyes, and the green that I imagined in my head was pretty fake. The only picture that I can find of green eyes that matched the shade in my head was very “enhanced”. That’s pretty sad… and so brown eyes… I’m sure they can be pretty, too.

               Why do I feel like I write the most random posts ever when I’m tired? Which is like all the time now. Hopefully, they’re interesting at least…