Hi, I Hate You

So this is inspired by “Picture to Burn”, which is the song that Inx and I were singing in downtown Bellevue. It was kind of super epic and absolutely awesome. J

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Hi, I hate you. I hate you very much. In fact, if you didn’t exist, my world would be so much better. You. You are the reason I cannot have nice things. You are the reason I get little sleep. You are the reason that my life isn’t perfect. Feel bad yet? You should.

I will whine, yell, and scream at you. About every last little thing, because you deserve it. I hate you. I’ll hate you forever; I can’t wait until you’re out of my life. You realize that I don’t actually care about you right? Oh, but that doesn’t matter. Whether I care or not is not the matter at hand. The matter is that I’m rather miserable and it is all your fault. Yup. Your fault.

So think badly of me for writing this. Go ahead, I don’t care.  It’s not like you thought highly of me in the first place. I will not longer be afraid of what you think of me. I will no longer censor my statements, or be worried that you will get mad at me. Get mad at me. I’ll watch you react to the things that I do, I’ll make you react, I’ll force myself into your head and make you regret everything you’ve ever done to me.  You’ll regret that you ever let me go, you’ll regret everything you did wrong, you’ll regret shattering my heart into a million pieces.

So have fun with your silly little life, and I’ll continue with mine. But just know that you, you’re the one who made me this way. I’ll hate you forever, and don’t you ever forget that.

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WHEEEEEEEEE. That was insanely fun to write. And even if I’m not actually that angry, it’s fun to write angrily! It’s terrible though. When I’m writing this, my conscience is going “you’re not being fair” and “that’s not actually true” and “what a horrible thing to say!” So inherently, I am not an angry/unfair person, unfortunately (oops, this can definitely be contested). I hope that doesn’t show through, and I wrote a believable angry rant!

Haha, I feel slightly delirious J